So you are driving as hard as you can and are trying to do well. Sometimes you move forward, sometimes back, but it always hurts.
The most important point is to keep moving forward and avoiding people, places, and behaviors that decrease your self-worth. Whatever you need to do that can help you avoid these things must happen. Anyone who compromises this is not your friend. They have their own agenda and you are not at the top of the list. Period. You must be ruthless in this effort, this is not about making ‘friends’ but about rebuilding yourself.
Never make yourself lesser based on someone elses opinion. If you are not harming others or yourself, chances are you should hold your head high.
The past is gone. Let it wither and die. Do not sustain it.
You can and must move forward. No excuses and no fake friends.
Be well, live, laugh, and love.